Enunciating my Lessons

Hi Everyone!

So, Ben is encouraging each of us to share our stories about how we have been implementing what God has taught us. For me, I have had some hard lessons to learn recently. God called me to completely and totally surrender everything to Him and trust Him regarding all that he wanted to do in my life. He started working on those things in Windsor in regards to my trusting people (especially guys) and continued to do so as I found new freedom two weeks later. However, most recently I have really struggled with taking back the pen from God as I tried to accomplish things and have not rested in His strength in awhile. Most recently, with my brother's accident, I have struggled with trying to control and accomplish everything, me trying to lift Sam's spirits, me trying to do everything. In true honesty I have seen that in this storm I have not been resting in God's strength, but rather in my own strength trying to make things happen. I have sadly pitched my tent recently and allowed attacks from the enemy to keep me paralyzed in one spot. I know I need to make the final step of going to my old church, but instead of going in obedience, I argued with God all last night and then went to my home church instead. I have once again fallen on my face before God, broken because I have failed in doing things in my strength. I thank God for using the events in my life to force me to pull up the stakes and once again start moving into the endless frontier.

So that is where I'm at right now. I can't wait to hear everyone else's stories!